Rusty and I officially broke up today.... i think. He accused me of getting high because i stayed up till 4 this morning.... never mind that i slept all evening. He has NO idea how hurt i am by his accusation... I won't abandon him.... no matter how badly it hurt me...because he can't pay the bills all by himself... this house is his dream... and i can't see him losing that just because he hurt me. That would be a really low thing to do... and i still love him... i really do... Damn It... I'm crying again....

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This is from my other journal. It states simply how i feel about life.

If jesus was alive today... i believe he would be sickened and disgusted by the things christians have done in his name. As for christian love.... i don't want that kind of poison.... in my opinion... it spreads as they try to convert people. Do i hate these people??? No.... Do i hate theiur actions in the name of their god.... Fuck Yeah I Do!!! I am a unmarried bisexual Wiccan living with my boyfriend currently... so to the christians... i live in sin.... That is someone else's thing... not mine... I am in a committed relationship... My post on HK's Blog was merely stating that i get that a lot too... i was not condemning ANYONE... i was merely sympathizing. It's not the people i have problems with... it is what the religion DOES to them. If you have no tolerance for open minded people there is no way.. in my eyes... that you can be beautiful. Plain And Simple. Christianity is an Ugly Scar left by a bunch of people 2000+ years ago that wanted to control large groups of people.

I'm hooked.... I'm addicted...... I'm ... hahahahaha. Anyhow... I am currently addicted to Diablo. I never realized how much fun it really is.... but i'm having a blast. The only game i had ever been able to get into was postal 2 and that's only cause it's sick evil and disgusting.....I dunno... i just know i like it....this makes me want to get D2 and play till my head explodes.... I think my current good mood is directly proportional to the 2 hour nap i took @ 7PM... yeah.. i know... I'm a genius..... Now i am never gonna get to sleep before 3... anyway... just wanted to update and now i'm off to play diablo some more....

Well.. as usual.... Saturday the 14th was far worse than Friday the 13th.... My niece accidentally hurt my dog who turned around and nipped at her.... bad thing was... he got her face. We almost got rid of the dog... btu we couldn't bring ourselves to do it. He spent the last 24 hours in his pen. He knows it was a bad thing to do... but i feel bad that it happened in the first place. It wouldn't have happened at all if i hadn't slammed Havoc's ( AKA Kau) tail in the door by accident. She sat on his sore tail... which is why he got her in the first place.... my sister called it a disciplinary nip... which.. for some reason... makes me laugh. She calls it i disciplinary nip... i call it my dog being an asshole...I love Friday the 13th.... i just wish it wasn't always followed by a Saturday the 14th.....

OK... Is it just me... or does anyone think a friday the 13th ( my dads bday too) the day before valentines day is a bad omen?? I'm thinking something BAD might happen... i never really have bad luck on the 13th... it ALWAYS waits till the 14th.....

Oh, Well... if something happens.. it happens..... I can't believe i have had my libret piercing in for a year exactly tomorrow.... I hardly even notice it anymore.. unless my dog licks my face or my sweetie tries to pull it out accidentally....
We've been together for 13 months already... it seems like time has just WHIPPED on by....:sigh: